I am a mother, student, daughter, friend. I am me and I am you. In 2009 I met a man who I thought was the most wonderful person I had ever met. In 2009 I made a decision that would change my and my 3-year-old son’s life forever. This was the decision to date a sociopath.
I have created this site in order to share my life experiences, to talk about life at the beginning of the relationship and the red flags I missed, what happens when you start to lose yourself, and the way you cope with it all. Then, there’s the realization that “I can’t live like this for the rest of my life. I need out.”
But, once you’re “out,” when you think things can’t possibly get any worse, they do get worse, and the judicial system actually helps your abuser completely destroy you to the point of near suicide. Sometimes, the children are the only reasons you survive.
I am extremely passionate about changing the laws and making judges aware of the consequences of their “co-parenting with an abuser” court orders. Co-parenting with an abuser emotionally abuses the children. The abuse is often more severe after you’ve left.
I now have three children. Two of which are from my abusive ex. I am free now, yet still tormented daily by this person. It has been over three years since I left my abuser and we still meet in court. I actually have to testify tomorrow morning against him, in criminal court. I pray for the day he moves on, or chokes on a doughnut, (can I say that?). In the mean time, I try my very hardest to keep a right head. I, as well as my children, have been diagnosed with PTSD and anxiety. I have been receiving EMDR as a form of treatment for my PTSD. WHAT AN AMAZING THING! I will talk about this more as time goes on, but if you are reading this and are a sufferer, you should look into this form of therapy. IT WORKS!
I feel better, but it’s been a struggle. One step forward, two back, so I now just take baby steps and really focus on slowing down and trying to enjoy the little things in life. It does get better, with the right help …and lots of yoga!